Do you sometimes find yourself wondering what to say to people you have known for a long time? Not that you no longer have anything to say to them, but because you either lack the words to express what is going on, or that so much of you experiences of late, your life now falls outside their view of reality, and you doubt they are ready/open to hear what has been truly been going on in your life.
In other words, you have changed, shed your skin, while they are pretty much the same - by choice or because the familar feels safe, even if it does not always feel right.
That can be challenging, frustrating, even disruptive/ destabilizing when you have done the work, found the infinite sources of truth and love within, and whenever you venture outside, all you see is the lack of truth and love in others. Yes, you do notice those who shine bright, those who have found truth and love, but it is the realization of this great lack that is most disheartening. It pierces your entire being.
You see the illusion they are in - voluntarily or otherwise - or the facade of half truths they present to the world. You envision the pain in those who value others and their opinions more than they love themselves. You see what is missing in the lives of others, yet you can do nothing but only be yourself, for you now know that they have to unearth their love, their truth themselves, just like you did.
Sometimes you can wonder why the world is set up in such a way that is easier or cheaper for individuals, companies, governments... to cheat, to lie, than to do what is right. And ask yourself if all the grief, sacrifice and standing out is worth it.
Facing the world as it has been created by man, it can be downright hard to live the truth and love you have uncovered.
Those of you whose eyes and heart are fully open can expect turbulence once in a while.
In some ways, you are the speed bump on the road(s) of those you encounter.
You are a point they need to meet to initiate change or to have the courage to take action and start being who their heart/higher self are showing them that they have always been.
It is a challenging job or mission. Some days it seems that the peace, the love, the hope, the strength, the courage that is required for you to be able stand out and be an agent for change (because you do stick out, in a positive, uplifting way - albeit sometimes uncomfortable for others), have gone missing.
These days, you almost wish you could go back to the way you were before sometimes, because it was so much easier to be blind (not necessarily more fulfilling or better, but easier), so much easier to be another lemming imitating the others down that cliff than to be going the other way, following your truth that lifts up your entire being and the life of those you meet.
Just know that the world needs you. That you signed up for this long ago, and that you possess all the qualities and the strength of character you need to do what sometimes feel like too demanding or unachievable.
See the lesson or the light hidden in your struggles - those you have with yourself and as well as those you encounter with others.
Remember that your neighbour, coworker or sibling came here to find his or her own purpose. To remember who he or she is. To accomplish his or her mission. And that mission is not to aggravate you or to make your life miserable.
Well, maybe it is. But not on a personal vindictive level. On a lesson or pattern-breaking level. Once you get it. The lesson that is, the trigger disappears, so does the aggravation, for the other may push the button, but it no longer has any effect on you.
If you no longer respond to the old triggers, the nuisance/pain will get tired of playing tennis by him or herself and find someone else to play with.
If past elements of your life seem to be resurfacing. For instance through dreams/thoughts of past events or relationships, a character in a movie, book or tv show that looks and act like an ex, and even has his or her energy, or thinking of people that are no longer part of your circle, that is normal.
No need to try to read into it, analyze the situation or feeling. It does not necessarily mean anything. Sometimes, it is just another exercise or phase in letting go. So let go.
Having said that, one thing to pay attention to though is your bodily/emotional reactions when you wake up from that dream or watch that character on TV.
If the mere thought of that situation/person from your past used to make you so tense, angry or anxious that you could barely function, how do do you feel/react as it the past shows up in unexpected ways? Do you remain calm, serene, happy and grounded, even smile/laugh at the whole situation?
If that is the case, congratulate yourself! You have graduated...
You see, it is one thing to believe that everything you have done has allowed you to truly shed your skin(s) and learn the lessons of the past. The true test of change lies in (re)acting differently to old patterns. To respond (or not) in a way that honours your true self, that shows great (self) love and compassion.
Words only do/mean so much. Your actions reveal your being, your growth, what "wins" - by that We mean mainstream beliefs/ convictions or your own.
Nobody said remembering who you are and shining your light are easy. Still, this is what you came here to do. It is the most important/needed thing you will ever do, even if it seems you are alone (you never are).
There are great rewards. You do not always see them yourself, all the seeds you plant that grow. Sometimes you experience the joy and bliss you spread, but sometime only the person you helped (with or without your knowledge) carries the light you ignited for them.
Think of all the great light bringers, visionaries, world changers that came before you, the people you admire most - still living or who have passed on. Well, they paved the way for you. The road you walk on can be treacherous, but they gave you the tools and the inspiration to embark on your own path.
Shedding your skin and remembering who you are is much easier thanks to them. You are simply the current generation of that change/renewal energy they embodied.
Embrace it. Be proud of it. Celebrate it. The planet needs people like you to have the courage and the strength to change.
This is All.
Much Light and Love to Everyone.
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Now that's the way it is! Thanks...
ReplyDeleteBreaking-out the delusion, or shedding skin, is tantermount to a baby observing it's family's wierd behavior as they feined to impress one another with faked personna's et-al. As you grow, you realise you have to escape & break out to be free. It's easier when your young though, divinity allows you vision to capture truth, (you don't recognize it as such, only that you managed to have a knack of knowing inside,) that when your older you realize was that part of you they suppressed most, in order you would become a clone like them.
ReplyDeleteWhence out in the world, you embark on a journey seaching for another 20 years to discover the exact same thing all over again. It's the same as it was in the beginning, you don't know shit, think you are the shit, but no-one knows it! You go out to try and explain it to everyone else who's doing the exact same thing, as you scratch your head to re-mind your brain to work in the pounderance of that truth, a whole world full of manic clueless fools who think they are the one and not you.
For a while there I was hoping for et's to help with my escape to a better place, with they're free energy technology. Alas that was just lies to assist our delusion a while longer, as the gloominated cemented-in the last vestages of the human family jail -
HC - As a child, I prayed to E.T. (as in the movie) to come take me away. Now I am doing pretty good at accepting what is.
ReplyDeleteIt can be a delicate balancing act to honour one's truth and to respect that of others, especially when they "think they are the shit" as you wrote.
All of us here on Earth do the best we can. There is a lot I keep away from family, some friends and definitely coworkers, simply because I know they would go into deep fear if I were to share some of my beliefs or experiences.
Love and compassion go a very long way. One has to discard judgment, which never serves anybody.
A change in perception can also be helpful, a "human family jail" is the last place I would like to be. How about "human family classroom"?
Some members of my family would probably arrange for an exorcism if they knew I channelled.
My saving grace is that I now think - If I can manage being different (the weird one or the black sheep) in my family and being accepted as such, and treat everybody with respect even if they don't with me or each other, then I can conquer the world.
Our families are often our biggest lesson bringers and life tests. If you can be the best version of yourself with the people who know all your buttons, push them and can bring the worst out of each other, you shine so bright you could light up the world!
You sound quite smart, I feel like I could have written that email 20 years ago... Continue on your path, let go of all dense energies (like anger and exasperation), and you will do great! There is a phenomenal energy and infinite potential in you. If I had a team for change, I would want you on it.
Blessings
DoT